In my last post, I mentioned two things that cheered me, and that the second was a lunchtime conversation with an office mate.
He helped me process a basic conflict I have with my planned new church start which, if the conflict continues will surely mean nothing will come of it.
On the one hand, I need help to get this thing started. The weekly lectionary lessons exercise shows that I don't have the surplus time to work on this church, and I have no intention of giving up my very fulfilling day job. Serious help comes with the expectation that the church would be "full service": an infelicitous term, better applied to gas stations, intending to suggest paid staff, complex programs and buildings. And I could make the leap to "go there" ifÂ -- this is the other hand --Â I had faith that there would be the help I needed. But since those who care about such things are still talking about the need to change Unitarian Universalist culture, I don't think I can rely on the general fellowship to come through. And then there's the baggage of expectations -- with money comes influence, even if indirect -- which means I might have to compromise my vision to get support.
Thus the feedback: in essence, do what you can.Â Something is better than nothing. Something can be built-upon (unlike nothing). Not rocket science, but it needs to be said.